Naughty First

I can't believe it's come to this, I have had to join a dating site in search of a partner. After suffering so much heart break at the hands of my ex husband I am now stepping into the big world of dating again. It's going to be a scary venture, especially since I haven't dated or had another man touch mesince the 80's. And so much has changed since then, now dating has become so technical and nothing like I remember from before.

My ex husband was a marine and life with him was miserable. He was not like a partner at all but more like a sergeant. I had always thought we would be married forever even under those sad circumstances but one day he told me he was leaving me for another woman. It broke my heart to pieces, now as I look back I am not even sure why. It wasn't like I was still in love with him. I guess I was used to him and even though we had problems I still saw us him as my partner and I respected him in that way.

He moved out shortly afterwards and we soon filed for divorce. I think the most heart breaking thing of all was the look on my daughters faces the day he left. It didn't seem to touch his heart at all because he still left even while they cried. Since that day I have hated him and I still don't have anything to do with him at all. And now I am finally moving on and I am going to find a true match for me.

This dating site has matched me up with a really interesting guy. He's handsome with a touch of gray at his temples and he is an executive chef. I feel a bit better knowing that he has a steady job. I don't want to have another relationship that is filled with money problems. I know what mistakes I made the first time around and I don't plan on making them again. My first date is tonight and I plan on having a great time.